I always want to collect up my energy at the end of a year. I don't want to leave any of it behind me, as I will need it going forward. 2008 looks like it is going to rock and I will need every speck of myself with me, every molecule, every teeny weeny bit. All the big bits too.
In my zeal to get myself into present time, I'm revisiting a lot from my past. This painting, 'Sunflower', is from about 7 years ago. I am feeling nostalgic for my flower paintings, which I used to make a lot of. At the time I was making a lot of flower paintings, I was also growing a lot of flowers. I lived in Chicago, which as you may already know, has a Very Short growing season. Not Long Enough, as I recall. And full of Surprises, which can wipe out one's entire garden in one May frost overnight.
Still, I am nostalgic for it, because it was so sweet, after the long Midwestern winter, to welcome spring. And what a lovely segue into my point: I feel as if I am about to begin my Spring. I am finally leaving a kind of Winter I have been in for a long time. It is hard to describe or explain. I just know I am about to start on the next part of this wonderful adventure that is my life.
So I may be a bit nostalgic for the past. As I collect myself back from it, and have a lot of gratitude for what I have gone through, the people who helped me, and who I have become, I can see more clearly a new beginning.
I am visualizing new flower paintings. And new trees. Blooming with the first buds of Spring.
"Sunflower" 2001 32"x26"